Every year I try to read something for banned book week. Most years I fail. I’m a planner in most aspects of life, just not in my reading habits. However I’m in multiple book clubs now, and also help to create some social media content for my work’s accounts, so Banned Books Week was actually on my radar a month earlier than normal.
Which meant I was able to snag the audiobook of To Kill a Mockingbird from my public library before anyone else could jump on the Banned Book bandwagon.
First off, yes I think audiobooks count as reading. Thank you.
Second. Wow. I didn’t know it was possible to fall in love with a story you already knew so strongly.
I first read To Kill a Mockingbird my first semester of high school. I was young and naive. I didn’t know what books I liked. I didn’t understand what made a classic a classic. I knew I enjoyed Scout and Jem. I knew Atticus was a good man. It felt like the right type of story to be reading. Realistically I didn’t understand more about race and fairness than Scout. I still loved the book. I enjoyed the movie too. I was officially a Harper Lee fan.
And then I ignored her and mockingbird for 15 years. When Go Set a Watchman came out I read the coverage and decided to skip reading, for reasons I outlined in my actual review of Watchman last week. I probably sent out a sad tweet when Lee died, but that would have been the extent of my interactions.
Then Furious Hours came out this year and I was obsessed again. I didn’t remember as much from Mockingbird as I had originally thought. I gained a better understanding of Harper Lee’s life, the more autobiographical nature of parts of her work, and the place Watchman fits in everything. I also knew I wanted to give her seminal work another try.
Reading To Kill a Mockingbird at 30 was like coming home. The whole gang was there. Only now I had background information. Dill was clearly based on Truman Capote, which is a sentence 14 year old me wouldn’t even know how to process. Scout is also younger than I remembered, and her naivete shows. The fact that it was only published in 1960 really packs the biggest punch. Civil rights were still a hot button issue. Writing something from a southern perspective set during the 30’s was a hot take.
Mockingbird carries more weight because of its setting and time. It also carries more weight coming from a true Alabamian.
More than anything though Mockingbird is a tale of growing up, of learning that life isn’t always fair, and that you shouldn’t always judge a book, or a person, by their exterior.
To Kill a Mockingbird also reminded me of my own school days, coming home for a homemade snack, talking with my mom and spending time with my friends. It reminded me of cookies. So while I was listening to Sissy Spacek narrate Scouts coming of age story I popped into the kitchen and made up a snack of my own.

These cookies are a little cakey, a lot of blueberry, and have the most perfect lemon glaze. They’re soft and moist and a pop of flavor. They’re everything a picky eater would ignore, but we are adults now, and no longer picky eaters.
Ingredients
1 c flour
½ c softened butter
4 oz cream cheese
1 egg
1 tsp vanilla
2 ½ c flour
1 tsp baking soda
1 tsp baking powder
¼ tsp salt
2 c blueberries (about a quart)
1 ½ c powdered sugar
1 tbsp lemon juice, fresh
1 tbsp milk
1 tsp vanilla
Zest of 1 lemon
Preheat oven to 350. Line a baking sheet with parchment paper.
Cream together butter, busar, and cream cheese. Add egg and vanilla until combined.
In a second bowl combine flour, baking soda, baking powder and salt and then mix into wet.
Gently fold in blueberries. Be careful not to burst the berries as they will dye your batter.
By the rounded tablespoon place cookies on prepared baking sheet. Bake for 12 to 14 minutes.
For glaze, whisk together powdered sugar, lemon juice, milk, vanilla and lemon zest. Wait for cookies to cool. Drizzle with glaze. Enjoy!


